heart. hurts.

ahhhhh my heart hurts. i love so many people. i know so many excellent, outstanding individuals around this planet and i don't know how to hold them all in my heart at the same time. sometimes i fear it may explode. and then i meet another person that's so beautiful and unique and revels God in ways that only they can and the growing pains come again.
as i serve and travel and seek God the world keeps moving. friends marry, have kids, get divorced, move, and i miss a lot of it. makes me miss the changing of seasons in one location. what was that like again? staying around long enough to see 4 seasons in a proper order?
plants are fascinating. you stick the seed in the ground and with water, sun, and soil it will grow s l o w l y. it may produce exotic flowers or delicious fruit, but it's worth waiting for. it can't be hurried along. a plant moves at it's own pace.
someday i want to tend a garden. fruits and vegetables will grow there. i will have planted those seeds with my own hands and then eventually nurtured those plants long enough to eat their fruit. what a grand dream.